Hi Shelley! I can’t answer for you — truly it is a choice that you’d want to be comfortable making. I don’t want to sugar coat this experience — it is intense — and with that in mind, I might suggest easing up to it with other medicines that are a bit gentler (for me, this was a low-dose ayahuasca ceremony). That said, this toad experience was a cathartic release for me and I think could be for you too so long as you feel up for letting go and not resisting whatever is happening. It’s truly just being along for Mr. Toad’s Excellent Adventure!